Who Am I ?

5D7B0A02-BF33-41D0-9831-40DB1222CB4EI’ve been Pastor Mike’s wife for many years. I no longer have a pastor husband and I’m no longer a wife.

You don’t realize how much of your identity is tied to your spouse until they’re gone.

Everything I thought I was changed in one day. I know who I am in Christ. That’s not the issue. I just don’t know who I am on this earth. Not without Mike. This isn’t a path I planned. The choice was made for me. It’s the beginning of a journey to discover my new ‘alone’ earth identity and everything within me is resisting this road I must travel.

There is so much loss this side of Heaven and earth life consists of constant change. But where there is great loss the potential for gain is greater.

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43:18-19.

In this present wilderness, as I’m stripped of my former self, there’s no guarantee of what the future holds or what I will become. But God promises to make a way. He promises water in the wasteland and I want to trust the day will come when a ‘new thing’ springs up. I‘ll no longer be consumed by the past but will have hope for the future.

No Lord, I don’t see it! Or perceive it. Not now.

Don’t let me give up. Help me to keep moving forward.

“He who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also He said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” Revelation 21:5.

I surrender it all to You. Trustworthy and True One.

Make me new.

3 thoughts on “Who Am I ?

  1. LaVon Collis

    He’s doing it!💕I hear it! I see it! Grace. Healing. Peace. Restoration. Strength. Purpose. Wisdom. Compassion…for such a time as this💕

    Just BE💕whatever state you are in, the Wonder-working, mighty Father God’s Glory IS radiating
    Through YOU , Woman of God, cherished daughter.

    Holy Spirit will lead in a PLAIN path on this earth
    in the fullness of time. You are trusting the right One💕

  2. Christine law

    You are such a blessing to all that read your writing. They make us to think about the things we have not thought about in our busy lives . And we need to see them on paper sometimes to make them real .
    I love you and pray for you daily . Your joy will return and you will see things more clearly. Love you ❤️

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